Thursday, June 29, 2006
woooooohooooooooooooo
I am in New Zealand
The things I have seen leads me to only one conclusion -
there is a GOD
Tomorrow I'm hiking up the glacier
!!!!!!!!!and sky diving!!!!!!!!
Day after next I'm jumping off a bridge 440m high
and
ride the canyon swing
I hope my bowels can take it
After that I'm swimming with dolphins
(It's winter, yeah, but I didn't fly all the way to watch them from the boat)
THIS IS LIFE
YES
Friday, June 16, 2006
Grrrrr Marah Lah Ni
I didn't fly a million miles away from home, leave everything that's familiar behind, the food the fam, the sun! for this land of the Gods of rain, just so I could satisfy your desire for a certain material object that I bloody well know you can get at any standard department store in good ol' Malaysia!!When I say I'll try and look for it, I don't mean I will definitely go into town specifically to get it for you! It means if I happen to be in town and have time to spare I'll take a look around!!Not because I don't care about your needs and wants, if it makes you happy, it makes me happy, but just like you, I have a couple of 2000-words essay on endoscopic retrograde cholangeopancreatography, the worst part being I have to be able to pronounce and spell the word before I can even begin to define it! On top of that I have to spend the few sunny days that Britain has cooped up in a hospital from nine to five listening to a 63 year old man talk about his good old days and watch a 70 year old fragile lady have a camera stuck up her ass! On the unlucky days that I don't get to borrow my good friend's car or get a lift from anyone, I have to wake up before the sun so as not to miss the bus. By the time I get home I'll be too knackered to even cook meself a decent dinner so I end up with Cornflakes! for dinner! Then I have to stick my nose in the pile of note that's in the corner begging to be read and scribbled on because I have that thing they call exams coming up and as much as I oh so sure will puke if I take another look at the notes I have to bite my tongue and try to understand the workings of the complex being that is the human body so that I can at least pass all my papers and have a decent summer with my family and not worry about having to resit my papers. And then the next morning I wake up and off to the hospital again and the cycle repeats itself!!!Sure I tell you about the time I went up the Beacons and spent the night in the lodge with my favourite person here, and about the nights spent in the pubs and about how I went into town and painted England's cross on my face and watch my boys win the game and parade the streets shouting Vindaloo Naa Naa!. But all that don't mean all is chocolatey and seventh heaven here! I don't get free money from the government! The price I pay is endless nights of mugging and last minute cramming and nearly freezing to death in the bitter snow! And so what if I have a boyfriend who lets me use his car as I please! I can't take it and drive to wherever I want just because! And no I can't give him a list of things to do and at the end of the day check if he manage to get your desired item, because he has got his own stuff to do, responsibilities on his shoulder and even if I could, i won't because that is not what he is here for, and maybe at a certain level you don't mean as much to me for me to go all that way to please you. For God's sake even my mom thinks twice before asking me to get something for her, even then she says not too worry and that it's not all that important nor urgent.I'm not sorry if I'm a lucky bitch that I am living in the UK, all expense paid for at least another 3 years of my life. It didn't come easy for me, it didn't come easy for anyone else. We all worked hard for it, somewhere along the way we all made sacrifices to get what we want and be where we are. You didn't even have the decency to say thank you, instead have the guts to make exceptional diva demands! I am SO mad right now I can't look at you, talk to you or even think about you! Marah. Marah. Marah. Marah. Marah!
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
There are times you have to do things you don't want to or things that are not important to you because they are important to the people who are important to you. Sometimes I feel like this sacrifice is stretching me, stretch beyond yoga. This is like a total physical and mental and emotional contortion! And I think the utmost problem is that the cut inside bleeds the worst, heals the slowest and leaves the most hideous scar than the childhood graze on the knee. *goes to cry*
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Rindu rumah
I was just chatting with my cousin who is staying over at my house
Cousin: your mom buat choc cheese cake sedap giler
Cousin: delicious!
My mother makes the best cakes in the world!
I know my favourite is waiting for me when I go home.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I rindu you =(
So fast the lone hours fly by,We ought to be together, You and IDan kadangkala kita hanya sedar keindahannya
Pabila ia sudah tiada di depan mata
Tidak rela ku lepaskan satu-satunya insan
Yang berikan ku segala makna kehidupan
Thursday, June 01, 2006
My today
Growing up sucks, not all boys live up to your expectations, but there are times when everything - love, romance, money- fall perfectly into place andit's incredible. That time for me... is today.
The two most amazing word in the English language: summer afternoon, summer afternoon. And that afternoon... is today.
When you realize how perfect everything is, you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky. And that I did... today.
I can't promise you tomorrow, I can't buy back yesterday so baby let us walk hand in hand today.
So fast the lone hours fly by,
